Conspiracy

There is a conspiracy,
but it is not one of foreign governments and underground leaders. It is a conspiracy for
you to find Truth. You will only find Him if you are looking for Him. You cant stumble
across Truth because things you stumble across, you just pick up and put into your
pocket. But when you are looking for something and you find it, well, it is jolting.
Partly because you thought you would never find it, but also because when you continue to
walk, you are not really looking anymore.

I dont mean to be abstract, because what I am talking about is very practical. It
is reality. It could be likened to looking at the ceiling of the Sistine Chapel just
finished, with Michelangelo, its creator, standing right next to you. Maybe that is still
too far off and hard to relate with. It is being in the mountains and seeing the raw
majesty of them, and then feeling or coming to the realization, that its creator is next
to you. I think it is still too abstract. what I am talking about are little revelations
that you and I know didnt come from either of our minds. Realizing for the first time,
"Whoa, THAT is real love, thats not what I thought it was at all." You know it, because
it was dropped into your thoughts, and when it hit the ground, well, it is that jolt. You
might not have known you were looking for truth, but you are. And you know you are,
because instead of just shrugging off that little revelation, you kept it and walked away
different.

You were made to be loved. Shakespeare wrote and wrote about this. Story tellers
from all cultures have made stories about this hunger and passion to be loved and to
love. It is hard to have the right view on it though, right? Because they all say
something similiar and yet it is different. And we all have our different opinions about
the subject. That is why we need that dropped truth-nugget to anchor down our sheet-like
thoughts that flutter and flap in the winds of fads. You know when it hits because it is
like the plop of a rock into the water. It just settles. It settles into every aspect of your life. You know that time when you had to get
that paper done, or there was a ton of stuff you had to do in little to no time? Its
strange, but instead of your mind flapping in that anxious state, it will be settled and
held down by Him, Truth. He is the Person who created and formed you with a plan for you
because He loves you. Any area where you feel anxious all the time or afraid, all of
those little insecurities that you hide from people, or try to, when He steps
in--everything changes. Or when You say things to fit in and do things so that people
wont know you are afraid. Any area like that, from the small to the big, it will be gone
for good. Because when you are loved perfectly, there is no fear. You have had tastes of
that kind of love in relationships you have been in. Those were moments of "truth", where
you caught a glimpse of Him, you just didnt know it. During those moments, you had that
security of the other person's love and you werent afraid of anything. The only fear that
could come into that is the fear of losing that love from the other individual. The
presence of that fear just means you werent being perfectly loved, if you were, the fear
of losing the love would have dissolved.

It doesnt make sense to be calm when everyone
around is panicking, I know. But when you know Truth, He is the perfect love. Deep calls
to deep and when He drops a little revelation, or glimpse of Himself into the deep waters
of your soul, then everything around you is settled. Everything.
If you arent there yet, than just wait. If you are one who wants Truth, He will
find you. Its a conspiracy. I just know Him a little bit. When you find the nugget
though, you will know Him yourself, no one will have to tell you about Him anymore.